Be Decisive - Intuition is Bae

I used to think I was really good at making decisions. I'd find myself at a crossroads, look around, pick a lane and be on my merry way. I’ve never felt the need or paid attention to how I’ve made my choices. Recently, I’ve been stuck at a heavy, heavy crossroads and trying to decide which yellow brick road to travel down hasn’t been as easy. When I have had to make big decisions in the past, I’ve written my list of pros and cons, used my mental crystal ball to peer into the future and see which outcome I preferred more. My intuition is my mental crystal ball and though I have wavered in my faith or it being true, it has never failed me. I’ve then proceeded to google, tweet, call, WhatsApp and ask my way out of my intuitions advice and end up flat on my back.

I didn’t realise how much the external had an influence on my decision making. From asking trusted advisors their opinion to reading amazon reviews, I didn’t realise how much I used the external to prop up my internal crystal ball. I’m not saying it’s a bad thing, not at all, I’m thankful that when I’m stuck I have external options for helping me to see if I’m making the right choice. That being said, when it comes to monumental decisions that need to be made I’m stuck.

There are times when nothing external can give you the right answer. I think it’s because when we use external influences to decide what to do, and it doesn’t work out, we can place the blame of that outcome outside of ourselves. We followed someone else’s advice and it was wrong. When a decision is truly our own, that responsibility rests firmly on our own heads and that can be a bitter pill to swallow.

Going for your dreams requires more leaps of faith than we are comfortable with. Making big dreams a reality requires us to often step into unknown territory and there isn’t a trustpilot review in the world to tell us which option will land us in the emerald city. Maybe that’s why the higher you get the less information there is on how to get there….but we’ll save that topic for another day!

I say all of this to say (to myself) the decisions I make for me, affect me primarily, therefore the influence of the outcome should come from me, primarily. I shouldn’t be afraid to trust my intuition, nine times out of ten she knows something on a subconscious level that I’m not consciously aware of and she’s always working in my best interests. I say all of this to say (to you) decision making is one of the pinnacles of “adulating” when we know deep down the way to go, but we hesitate out of fear, how we will look to others, or the simple acceptance that taking this road will be the first step of many hard ones to the top.

I’ve seen that those steps, those experiences are the beginnings of wisdom, and I think we’d all love a bit more of that.

Rose
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