Picture this, I need to record my next YouTube video. I know the topic and roughly what I want to say, the camera battery is full and I just need to put on a light touch of makeup to be ready. I get up from my laptop to go upstairs, start setting up, then a thought crosses my mind, I sit down again and aimlessly scroll through Twitter for the next hour. The thought I had was "If I do this video, I'm gonna have to make a trailer for it to promote it, I've already put out a blog post this week, I'm sure people are sick of seeing me, forget it." (I know there's a pattern of behaviour emerging, but writing is therapeutic and medicinal, so bear with me.)
In 2012, Maya Washington (a.k.a Shameless Maya) set herself a challenge to shamelessly promote herself for 365 days and see what would happen. Today she has over 1 million subscribers and 250k + followers on Instagram, she has achieved more than she imagined possible. From working with Prince (RIP) on his album cover to amassing over 80milliom views on YouTube, she's done incredibly well and shows no signs of slowing down. I'm telling this story to ask, why are we so afraid of putting ourselves out there? My friend, if you are not part of this collective, I take God beg you, let us know in the comments how to be more like you!
The more I go inside myself, trying to shake out the chaff, the more I discover how much I undervalue myself. I've always thought of myself as confident, and I believe generally most people that know me would agree. That being said, it's shocking how much I hold myself back. The quote that says we are more afraid of success than we are of failure was one that I thought of as corny. I mean come on, who is really afraid of success? The more I am working on being my best self, the more I see how true said quote is.
It's part of the reason why I set my own challenge to be fearless this year. Everything that terrifies me, I'm going for it. I could be quacking in my jeans and telling myself to stop internally, but my feet will keep moving. Cos the irony is that once I do the feared, I'll come out the other side loving it. Ain't that always the way?!?
Rose
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